heart pain

pain pain pain ya....
when i see tat comment ...
aisk..........
no see mai no problem lol...
y go see jek>< wuwuwu.... missing u ... but cant find u ... i promiss u ger i sure will do it... yi... hate my self ... today go sing k ... wish can enjoy... n duwant think any thing ><

juz hope u hapiness...
i know u no me u also can hapi ^^
take care ...
reli want to ask u ...
u have miss me ?
so idot ....
i reli try many plan

接受...

梁静如的接受以前是我最爱的歌...

仿佛上一分钟 你还陪在我左右 还以为我们会开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空 却模糊了我们的脸孔 哼过的歌到底是什么内容

仿佛已经自由 下一刻我变成风 吹过你的领空 差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶 我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂 却担心言不由衷

我们都接受 一定是彼此不够成熟 在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实得过了头 不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头 把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动 能记得多久


my mood now so like tis song...

崩溃...

今天的日子很难过...
辛苦没的告诉人...
没关系...自己扛...
因为是自己的事...

心痛,压力,想念,埋怨,痛苦,懦弱....
全都在昨晚出现...
一下全跑进我的脑海...
眼泪撑的住一时撑不住一时....

控制不到自己...
为什么人要有脑?
让人记得及想事情...
如果我能失意那该多好...

如果一切回到从前那该多好...
如果一开始你听我的那该多好...
一切都已经过去了...

我到现在都还在想着...
为什么你可以那么狠心...
丢下我...

其实我很努力想要忘记 以前的事...
我说过我放下了...
我知道你很开心...
但你知道我承受多大的痛苦吗?

我为了这一切努力这么多...
你这么能就这样丢下我?
现在你让我更痛苦...
为什么?为什么?

想发泄发泄不出...
因为根本不知道要怎样发泄...
我一直在努力活着...
习惯没你的生活...
但是原来很难....

我不喜欢在朋友面前哭...
因为我觉得这是我的事...
不要让你们陪我一起痛苦...
认识我的人都一定知道...

昨晚的情绪突然控制不到...
整整哭了几小时...
没人了解我...
全部人都放下我...
最心痛是不能在信息你...
昨晚真的鼓起勇气才信息你...
原来会令你烦...

我...还可以怎么做?
我以为把自己锁起来..
用别一个身份去活着...
我会好过一些...
但是原来不是...
一到晚上时..
里面的自己就会跳出来说...
你很没用...
没有人喜欢你...
你很笨....
最后..原来我没了你...
我只是活死人...
我被逼活着...
去完成你没完成的一切...
其实生命一点也不美好...
因为我活在灰色空间...
就让一切继续下去...
因为我根本控制不到...
最后我还我...
只不过是戴这面具的我....

The End

3month 28 day ....The End....
sorry cant n u 2gether celebrate ur buffday ...
but i think u also duwant see me ba...
haha...
nvm ... in here i wish u hapi buffday 1 ^^
hapi buffday to you (bao bei)
last time like tat call u ...
wish u can happy everday...
take care ur self good good ...

me so useless....
bcos me cant make u hapiness...
soli...
please promiss me ...
u will fine fine ...
soli i hurt u ...
soli i disturb ur hearth b4...
but now is end le...
wish u can 4get me...
continue ur life ...

10 is beautiful world...
but in this 10 no me ...

good bye ...my love...

想念...

有人说思念是一种病...
赞成呀...

想念一个人...
那个人一定是你重要的人...
不然你不会想念他/她...

多想告诉你我还爱你...
还很想你...
但一切已来不及...
因为再也没资格...

有一种想见不能见的伤痛...
好想见你...
好想抱你...
但那已不可能发生...

以后的生活会怎样?
没了你的日子...
我可以过的很好吗?
可以开心吗?

我怕后悔...
怕寂寞...
怕没人记得我...
没安全感的我...
有时会疑神疑鬼...

记得有一次...
回家乡(johor-segamat)
庆祝父亲节...
那时有很多多年不见的...亲戚...
我既然一个一个跑去问...
姑丈你记得我吗???
.......你记得我吗?

我的表姐说...
芬:你很无聊叻...
他们怎么可能回忘记你???
他们说记得我...
我真的很开心...
突然觉得很轻松...
心里的石头放下了...

被人遗忘的感觉...
真的很不好受...
被当透明人更难受...
明明就在身边的人...
为什么给我的感觉是...
很远?进不去你的世界...
我只能在边界徘徊...
等到累了...
那份想念就会慢慢离开边界...

虽然还很想念...
但是边界的大门依然封着...
想念的人被锁在里面...
想见也见不到...

不过我们还有回忆...
我们开心...
不开心...
甜蜜的回忆...
虽然不能成为你的唯一...
那就让我守着这些回忆吧...

我会一直都在...
只要你想我...
昨天听到一句话...
水能包容一切...
心跳了几下...
你知道吗?

我没想到我们的结局会是这样...
一切的一切都被我送回了"原点"
.............................................
你是我的数字...1
我爱你...XXXXX

pain pain pain...

today got three place so pain ...
1. is my eye...not fine yet ... still pain
2.is my stomach ...so pain pain...
3.is me ... sick jor...pain pain pain...

so xin ku today ...

morning i got see ur comment ...
when see it i cry ...
dunoe y ...
sorry ...
maybe time no match ba...

ytd no sleep ...
bcos so miss u ...
when back hm ...
take my hp ...
i want send msg tell u i back hm le ...
but when finis write ...
i no sent ...
heart so pain...

duwant bek hm...
duwant alone ...
cant cool down...
so ijust can do hmwork ...
clear all hm till 1++
feel tired ...
n my eye so pain...
when take bath cant slepp yet ...
see our pic...
cry again...
lol....
y me so use less...
juz will cry???

无力

有听过'宽恕'吗?
我超爱这首歌的....

你的眼泪让我无阻...
你懂不懂我为爱忍辱...
努力学习宽恕...
原谅那错误...
不甘我们的爱死在半途...

我一直在很努力...
为你努力...
而你?
为她努力...

够了...
真的是够了...
原来这样的爱情是很辛苦的...
我的心爱说: 我累了...主人,让我休息吧...
让人来爱我吧...因为人人都说..被爱是幸福的...

停止吧...

The End

The End ...
We End ...
let all End ba...
ntg to say ...
gud bye my XXXXXX ...
i no confindent can love again...
maybe at the very start ...
i ady know the End ...
like my ring ...
no reside me de...
alway no reside me...
enuf le...
i still got our memory ...

enjoy my life

my life ....my life ....my life.....
i wanna enjoy my life ... Elise ger life....
this few day crazy le....
alway n fren go see movie ^^
got some mv see two time tim...
alll movie let me see finis le lol....
hahaha....money also want finis le ^^
xixi....Elise ya Elise ....
please wake up n do ur self ba....
but really feel so tired n loney ...
hiaz...haiz...hiaz...haiz...

mv day ^^

today feel want mv ... than plan go to see mv lol...
when finis work i bek hm ... lif no good yet ... but still got one can use ^^...no nid wlk 19 floor...
xixi ^^ 640pm fren reach la... we go mid vallery ^^
haha... see street dance ... 9.50pm ticket^^ when buy ticket we go eat KFC ^^haha... say want keep fit ... eat KFC again ... lol...my fren say my hairstyle so cute ^^
when finis mv bek hm la... big rain ooo....so cool ^^
like cool ...cool ....cool ^^

lif lose

ytd 3am sleep 4am wake up ...
bcos me take 5am ger bus back kl...
tired..my fren also tired ....
but me so happy ^^
haha ... long time no see she le ...
8.++ reach kl ...
then go work ...
today beauty shop got two customer...
work until 8pm juz finis work ...
damn tired...
scare at hm bored ...so i take some book bek hm see ...
how know the lif lose jor ....
walao ....me live 19 floor le...
haiz....finally me also alk bek hm ...
this is my 2nd walk like tat bek hm ...
damn tired ger lol...
the book ya ... i thing go 3kg ba...
me alone take it then bek hm ...
today morning ...
lif also no run ... ...
OMG ...
no choose lol....
juz can walk 19 floor go work again ...
lol...
i know i keep fit now...
but (u) no need help me de la ...
yo... wish the lif can run today ... if no ...
i duwant bek hm today le ...
wuwuwuwu...

go ipoh day ^^

24when finis work plan go ipoh ....
bcos want see got ticket or not ...
6++pm go buy ticket ^^
reach here 9.30++...
wait my best fren (kim ) come bring me ^^
she say me so strong ...
can alone take bus come ipoh ...
haha....actlly i come find she help my hair ger...
my hair so cham le ...
many fren ask me y want go so far do ?
my answer is ... bcos i believe my fren ^^
she will do i like ger hairstyle...
reach she hm ... she hm got 4 dog ... scrae scare ...
she de daughty so cute ^^
sleep she hm a day ...
sunday morning n she go work ..
n she help me do my hair ...
finis do hair ...
omg ... change a look le ....
haha ... but i still can accept this look ...
when finis work ...she bring me go buy ticket ^^
back kl la... haiz... when back kl alone again ...
sure so sien ...me buy 5.00am ger ticket ...
haha...when back kl straight go work ....
my fren say me damn crazy ...haha...
but also no ticket le la....
huhu...
830++ reach kl ...
back hm pull down something then go work la ^^
hope next time can go again ^^

haha...

unhapi ....21/7/2010

.....................unhapi day...................................
ytd i received a bad new ...i cant accept ger bad new...
my fren say: juz let it... du so care ...bcos u cant change anything...
ya.... i know i cant change ... but me reli cant accept...
the bad thing will coming many gain...is it mething too much???
lol... damn down....reli feel duwant bek le....
Yifen cry ....but elise still can smile ....
when elise alone ...will bek to yifen....
so elise everyday find fren.... duwant let elise alone...
bcos when elise alone will cry n hurt....
here want thx a ppl ...thx he ytd acc me ...haha
we go see 11.50pm de mv ... 10++ reach ... buy ticket the we go wong ko drink tea...u lister me say my thing ... damn boring ma?
sorry ... me many to say le rite....scare le ba...
next time want out wif me again???hahaha.....
ytd reli duwant alone .... n reli thx u acc me ....
no let me alone ....bcos i reli hate n scare alone....
bcos i duwant cry agian....when i cry i like idiot...
hiaz........
got a ppl let me so shi wang....
reli ... nowi und le....
me juz is ying xing ren.....

oldtown ...

ytd day i help teacher clean office ...
lol... my sensitive skin come find me again ..
red red le my hand... when teacher see it ....
she say ... u r 'qian jia=ng da xiao jie'
lol... i say no la .... juz my hand cant tonch dirty thing onli ....haha... when finis clean reli tired ger... 6pm++ juz bek hm ... buy nasi lemak eat alone n my laptop ^^
alone ger life ..ya lar... maybe got abit scare ...but i can de...like 10pm jojo call me go oldtown yamcha...
reach Oldtown ...walao so many ppl lol.....we sit upside ^^
wait another fren rogan....we chat at here 1h30min... rogan juz reach ... when he come ... i alway say he ... haha...
so funny ger... bcos he ntg can say ... haha...
use he laptop on9 ^^fb ntg can see then mai open my msn lol...he say u see u see so many ppl find me ger ... lol...
where got jek??haha... he say when he open he msn no ppl find he ger ....juz he go kacao ppl ger... haha...12++ bek hm hp no money le... so go 7-11 top up ^^when top up i no enuf money ... my poker juz have rm8...die jor lol... still got fren waiting me reply msg ger ... then i find 'siling'in my bag ... hope got rm2 lol...haha... reli got le...
my bag any plance also got abit siling ge ^^ got rm2++....haha...siling help me la ^^ haha...bek hm wash face ... then see my mv again ... see till 2++ ba ... tired lol... then sleep la ...bcos morning want wor again ...
n jojo chating reli happy ^^ jojo buffdy will go clubbing ^^maison oo... haha... go clubbing lol... xixi...wish can enjor ^^lalalalala..

Elise alone life start .....

Thank you ....

Thank you all^^
1 i want thank my teacher Ms Swen ...teacher thank you bring me come KL...thank you alway gv me tis idiot change ...thank you alway egive me when i doing wrong...thank you teach me many thing ...reli so happy i can follow u n study wif u ^^i know me many time let u despair ... sorry teacher ... start now i will try my best in my life ...thank you teacher ...

2 thank my Mr wen cousin ^^thank you let me a jod ...n you support me study beauty ^^i know me alway doing wrong thing let u angry ... i m wrong ..." sorry " i also know say sorry i no use ... i ill try my best to do any thing now ... Thank you alway 4give me n gv me big support ^^

3 thank my best fren Sherrie ... this sha po is my EPI ger good good fren ... haha... sha po ... thank u oo^^ u ya ... also teach me many thing ^^ reli best can be ur fren ^^
u also help me many thing ^^ but i also have help u back ... so i no hutang u oo ^^haha...u small than me but u so strong more than me ... me so useless ... also have do less u hurt ger thing ... in here i say sorry will u ... sorry ya sha po ...

4 thank you christine teacher ... sorry ya ... i know me alway do let u hurt ger thing ... but u also no scold me ...
sorry ...maybe b4 i still think me is girl...so i so depend on u ...let u tired le...thank you christine teacher ^^

5 thank you -N-...is u let me know wat is hapiness...
know i also do many thing hurt u ... u say a ppl u juz can ger 3 change ... but u gv me more than 3 time change le...so happy i can know u ^^u also let me know many thing ya ... but i donoe how to say la ^^in here juz want say wif u ...Thank you -N-

6 thank my hmtown fren ^^sarah ...ah yu...windy ... n many many ^^thank you all ya ... can be fren n u all i so happy le ^^wish we can be best fren 4ever ^^love u all ...

7 Thank my KL fren^^ haha jojo ...sansan ...yumiko ^^ rogan...haha... thank you all alway acc me ^^
jojo ... my dear ^^ haha... wish u hapi 4ever ^^ love u all..
muack muack ^^

finaly i want thx my family ...
1 my dad thank u bring me come this world....

2 mun thank you care me still my grow...

3 my mei mei ... eva ... thank u be my mei mei ... n chat wif u damn funny ger ... bcos u sha sha de ^^ haha...

4 thank my cousin huai shan ^^ thank you alway acc me ^^
haha... u like my jiejie... i like u ^^ haha ... thank you ^^

finaly ...me jiejie...
jie...... I LOVE U jiejie....
miss u so ...want say sorry wif u also no change ady ...
u alway in my heart ...jiejie... thank god let u be my jiejie...i reli love u so much ...u so care me n so support me...sorry when i do hurt ger thing ...but i love u so much ... sorry when i make u angry ...but me also so love u ...reli sorry my dear jiejie...me nvr hv change can chat if u ady ....i so regret ....reget y when me back me no take time n u chat i choose go out play ??? rmb last call.. me at clubbing n my fren... u call me ... ask me duwant later bek hm ... if tat day i no go play .. maybe we will many time can chat ... n all will be change ... maybe i wont let u alone drive bek kuantan ... all is me ma?tat day reli feel want chat will u de... jiejie... i so regret ... reli regret....I LOVE U jiejie...

want thank ger ppl too many ... but in here also i me reli want say thank ger Thank you u all..let Elise grow up...n alway acc berside Elise ...

Yi Fen is die....

Yi Fen is Die......
but Elise life will be continue....Elise want be a idiot....
Elise is idiot.....
who know elise ? who und elise ? who love elise? alone ....
close my love ...
start now i want close my heart ....bcos it say so pain ....
hate love.....
love i lie... all is lie ....hate it ...i hate it.....
-End-
all End .... End now ....Elise will be alone .....

moody ...

Elise ....
bu shu yu ni de xing fu ni ying yao na ....
zui hou shou shang de zhi hui shi zi ji....
mei tian yi zhi zai zhong fu wen zi ji ....
zhe yang de ai qing shi wo yao de ma????
bu duan de wen zi ji ... zhen de neng jie shou ma???
zhen de neng ren ma??? zhen de bu jie yi ma???
wo de bao rong hui dao shen me shi hou ????
xing yi tian yi tian de shuo zhe ...jue wang....
fang shou ba ... ran na bu shu yu ni de ai qing zi you ... ye ran zhi ji hao guo ....
zhe yi qie...zhen de shi wo dang chu yao de jie gou ma???
wo bu hou hui ai shang ni ...
yin wei ni shi wo de zui ai ....
zui hou yi ci de deng dai ...
xi wang wo de ai qing hui hui dao wo shen bian ...
ye xi wang wo de xin neng zai bao rong jiu yi dian ...

i alway berside u ...
u see me ???
waiting u ....

15/7/2010

ytd alone at hm ....
haiz....
see mv untill 11.pm feel want slepp le....
haha... me ady long time no so early slp lol....
but b4 sleep ... also cry ....
cry dao tired juz sleep ...
my eye reli like a panda ady ....
many ppl say my face pretty ady ...
hapi ...
but my boby so fat ady too...
haiz...
say want keep fit ... but y now look like fat again le ??
OMG.....
today sherrie say want eat shabu -shabu ...
at my hm eat ...
later 5.30pm bek hm ....
wait she finis work come fecth me go tesco buy food ...
wish to day can enjoy ^^

lalalalalallalalalalalala..........

jiejie ........
i reli miss u .....
no a day can 4get u ....
u miss me ?
i think u sure also so miss miss me ger ....
wish u hapi ...
du worry me ...
miss u .....

alone again ...

morning wake up work ...
boss go singapore so today no in office ...
teacher sick le ...
so also no in ....
juz me alone at office ...
so i call sararh come acc me ...
1.30...sareah come my office ...
we plan later go leisure mall see mv n eat ...
wait he hubby finis fecth me bek ...
5.30 pm finis work ek hm take bath...
6.30 go out to leisure mall...
reach leisure mall.. we go wang kon eating ...
i want eat Mcd ger ...
but sarah say if eat mcd no full...
hahaha....
we go buy tirket 1^^
we see the twilight ^^
still ok lol tis monie...
finis movie bek hm lol...11pm reach hm...
cant sleep...
hp also no money ...
so juz juz can see me juz now at leisure mall buy ger drama...
see dao 3++ tired le ..
so slepp lol...
how know i miss my jiejie again ...
cry ...cry ...cry ...
dao tired ..then ....slp...
my eye now like a panda ...
wuwuwu....
reli hate alone ...

my hapi day n tired day

bek hmtowm la ^^
haha...
hapi .. hapi ..
bcos my dad also have at hm ^^
n dad they play 'lami '..
damn hapi ger ...
alway laught like crazy guy ..
laught dao my face 'chou jing ' ...
now still got abit pain ...
but really so hapi ger ...
bcos me reli long time no like tat le....
jiejie ... if u still here i think i will more more...
really so miss u u know ?
sat ...i bek k.l....
bcos sun want help my fren sherrie go she hmtowm do a beauty show...
en .. 10.pm like tat reach k.l ...
when i reach hm ... then go hm take some t-shirt ...
straight n sherrie bek she hmtown ... 12.++ like tat reach ..
go yamcha 1++ bek sherrie hm ...
2.++ like tat clear face prepaid want sleep le....
walao sherrie ger dog alway come kaciao me...
me no sleep.. bcos kaka(sherrie dog name )alway kacaio me..
wuwu ... tired ...
sun morning .... 6am wake up ...
prepaid food ...me do sandwich ...
when make up ... i cant find my eye borrow ...
lol...kaka eat le...
hate....
take sheerie ger ....
8.am go set up the plance ..
9am start the sho...
my work is consult ^^
not bad i close two set ^^..
but no me de line ...
haiz...
7.pm like tat finis the show ...
so tired ger ...
8p30 bek sherrie hm ...
take bath ...n eat some thing ...
9.pm bek k.l...
me really so tired ..
when bek k.l hm...
straight sleep like pig bcos tmrw still want work....

back hmtown ....

thusday i go bukit jalil buy tirket...
me 8.10pm go ... reach here 8.40 ba...
when me buy tirket i on call ...
when want back i see the tirket ...
shit .. i buy wrong ady ....
acuatly i want buy thuesday ger tirket de...
how i know i but wed ger...
finis le ... sure let boss scold...
fast call my boss 1 ... omg ...
duwant answer my call... my teacher also no answer my call...
die le lol...
if want change the tirket want payy half prince again ...
wuwuw.. no money le...
finally i no change i try sms to my boss n tell he ...
940pm i reach hm la...
n sherrie go out eat ^^
10++ like tat i received my boss sms ...
he approve my wed back ...
haha .. hapi ^^
bcos my dad have at hm ^^

this few day bad ...

arh...............
angry .....
bodoh malay guy ....
if u dunoe how to work ...
then pls back home be a baby ....
du go out work....
shit....
huhuhuhu.....

this few day stomach pain pain pain ....
wuwuwu....
alone at hm ....
lonely ...
n miss someone ....
cool cool cool ....
hate tis feel ....

jiejie i miss u ....
when me back hm sure will cry like a child....
sorry ...
me so trashy ...
let u despond...
sorry... sorry ..sorry...

i also wish i can be strong ....
but me cant do it ....
me alone so tired ...
feel so lonely...

rainbow is brief ...
but tis view is so beautiful...
my hapiness also like a rainbow ...
is brief..........

cry cry cry

jiejie... i so trashy ....
sorry ... me still like a child ....
sorry ...i no take care faimily ...
still cry ....
know u sure angry me .....
but me cant control my self ....
when miss u me sure will cry like a child ...
then alway say any trashy thing....
sorry ...sorry...sorry....
teacher n boss curse me is right ....
i know they is want me kind ....
but me so trashy ....
cant do it....
reli so trashy de......
no ur life ger tis 5 month ... me reli unhapi ....
me so tired...........tired.........
jiejie... i miss u ....
i love u ..........
u hv miss me????????/
jiejie....

8/6/2010

dunoe thinking .....
dunoe can do wat.....
dunoe me is who......
dunoe me is u ger who....
dnoe u thinking wat ....
dunoe dunoe dunoe ....

hapi ^^

ytd my fren celebrate wif me in t.s neway ^^
mu buffday ya^^
so hapi ger....
haha.....
still can rmb last year me alone celebrate de....
loney lol....
haiz....
this year relly so hapi ger.....
they buy the fruit cake so nice la ><
me love it ^^
haha....
12/5/2010...
i come find u in to9 ya^^
today is we 1 month ^^
haha....
u hapi ma?
i think hapi gua...
xixi....
but i know i hapi so ^^
hahahahaha....
shit><
my msn cant use le....
got ppl haker...
so hate ger....
haiz.....
want open new ger msn le....
elise0517@live.cn
my new msn ....

sotsot de me...

me so sot sot ger this few day...
haiz...
dunoe y...
when star me crazy like tat le???
i think in me love u ta day start .....
love u me feel want crazy...
me is 1 time know wat is 'true love'...
also is u let me know want is 'xing fu'
so hapi the god can let me meet u ^^
so hapi u in my life...
i luv u ....haha...
Elise...is u de....
juz u can change Elise....
juz u can Luv Elise
also juz u can miss Elise^^
haha...
crazy crazy ....
love u me like sha po....
'sha sha de wo ai shang ben ben de ni .....
sha de hao xing fu'
bao bei ^^
i luv u ...
i know now u no is me de ....
but me ady is u de ke^^
once day ... i want also is me de^^
haha
wish we can forever^^
muack^^

SHIT

6/6/2010
TODAY MOOD LIKE SHIT....
SO HATE MY SELF....
=((((
Y MY LIFE WILL LIKE TAT DE?
I WANT CHANGE CAN?
I DUWANT ALONE.....
I JUZ CAN CRY CRY CRY
SO HATE .....
I ALSO HATE U.....
DUNOE WAT I CAN DO......
FEEL WANT DIE.....
IF ME LOSE LE.....
GOT PPL WILL MISS ME ...
N CARE ME AT WHERE ?
RELI SO HATE TODAY DE ME....
MOOD LIKE SHIT....
WTF....
HELP ME ... SOME ONE CAN HELP ME???
BRING ME GO ANOTHER WORLD....
IN MY WORLD ME SO TIRED LA.....
WHO CAN HELP ME....?
I THINK NO ONE BA....
HAIZ....

tired life...

so long no write blog la ><

this few week

go many happen coming

me want crazy...

hapi de...juz got one ...

is i meet u....

uuuuuuu

i love u ....

u know?

haiz......

n u 2gether i hapi so...

wish can everyday like this....

but i noe cant....

jiejie....

u no accept me.....

but soli....

i cant control adi....

i duno i can do wat ....

juz feel want rest....

like u ....

juz rest.....

so miss u .....

u can come find me?

wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu..........

i duwant alone ...duwant alone....

so hate alone ...

u know de ....

y u can let me alone ?

今天一早就起来去巴士站买回家的车票呀…..
身上没钱呀…
打算去ATM按….
那知道没开…晕@@
害我白走一趟…..
真是的….
过后回去工作,
老师就叫我去7-11按看看….
就去试试咯….
怎知可以哦^^
开心到^^
5.00了….
放工咯….

hapi day ^^

Today and my fren jOjO go T.S sing k^^

7.00pm go T.S ya...

want take money in ATM de .....

How know all ATm Out Of Services...@@

Sien lol....

Nvm la....Go Sing K 1^^

So hapi in the K room ^^

They all so Funny ^^

haha....

Long Time no like that le ....

TODAY DE ME GOT SOME TIRED

TIRED TIRED TIRED

EVERY DAY WORK WORK WORK

SIEN SIEN SIEN DE LIFE.....

FEEL WANT SICK....

LONG TIME NO WRITE BLOG.....

THIS FEW DAY ME JUZ STAY AT HM

NO GOANYWHERE....

JUZAT HM SEE MV.....

LISTER SONG.....

FEEL LONEY....

MISS MY JIEJIE.....

SAD SAD SAD SAD.....

JIEJIE

U KNOW I MISS U MA ?

HIAZ....

MY LIFE SO BAD.....

LOSE MY JIEJIE I DUNO WANT I CAN DO NOW.....

Y U WANT LEAVE WIF ME......

Y Y Y ?

CAN YOU BEK BERSIDE ME ?

I LOVE U JIEJIE

=(

旅行.....

旅行

我们要去旅行.....

bali Or bangkok?

是你你去那里?

我比较想bangkok

因为那里有的按磨享受^^

但是老师说bali

比较多东西玩....

但是那里的按磨没bangkok的好=(

意见不和呀.....

不过不理这些先....

最重要是存钱^^

没$就不好玩了....

对不?

哈哈.....

也要选日子哦....

期待吧^^

26/3/2010

老师对不起

我无心伤害你...

我知道错了....

最近我很任性...

我也知道...

对不起...

给你麻烦了....

要不是老师告诉我....

我根本不知道我的行为....

伤了你的心....

对不起....

以后不会了.....

我没用....

不敢跟你说我的心情....

请你原谅....

对不起老师

25/3/2010....

25/3/2010….
今天去上课呀….
每个人都要开店了....
我呢....
当初我是想和姐姐一起开的.....
现在只有我....
我做不来的.....
我要放弃吗?
我不知道............
心情不是很好…...
怎知回家的时候见到变态老…..
呜呜呜….
吓444…..
打电话给朋友…
既然全睡觉了….
没接…..
天啊….
为什么?
最后…..
我房客..
今天没做工….
我就叫他回来了…..
但是有代价的….
要帮facial…..呜呜….
苦命……
他睡了….
我也回房睡了…..
最近有个习惯….
就是睡觉前都会想姐姐 一下…..
叫她给我梦….
可是她都不理我…..
其他人他就给梦…
就不给我=(
伤心……
姐姐………
求求你……给我梦好吗?
我好想你…..
想和你聊天呀……
出来见我好么?
求你了…..

23/3/2010

今天和朋友去她狗狗的店哦....

带她的狗狗spa^^

那里有好多狗....

好可爱哦^^

玩的开心^^

一直跟狗狗拍照^^

前几天的不开心.......

今天补回了^^

可惜我不喜欢狗狗舔我....

皮肤敏感哦....

不然我也买一只....

sorry

This few day forgive my blog password....
so cant log in write my memory....
later i will put it ...
i scare i will forgive all thing.....
so now i will take photo everytime when i hapi ^^...
jiejie i so miss u

17/3/2010

ytd n fren go G6^^when finis work i bek hm take a bath......then make up go to t.ts wait my fren ^^reach t.s......my fren no reach yet ...then i alone go starbuck nrink VANILA LATTER.....
me dulike drink cafe de.... but duno y ytd i will drink cafe....i think i cazy le ...hahaha....
a few min my fren reach la....^^we go berside t.s de reataurest eating....me eat salay....damn nice^^we chat in here .....bcos want wait another fren 'sansan'...jojo say she no mood so bcos she father scold she......then we call sansan want go where ?All say maison de .... but finaly we go G6..... reach here ...want packing....the packing so hand to find...haiz....@@
we got 9ppl got two boy 6g1tb^^the Tb so cute ^^n funny ^^
hapi to meet they all^^but in G6 so boring.... bcos here de music no nice...
so got abit bored....we all fren say next time they nvr go G6....haha....bcos really damn sien....

16/3/2010

今天约了傻婆去看戏....
四个人哦.....
放工回家...
要冲凉....没水来.....
唉...只好去傻婆家冲拉.....
在lrt等傻婆...好热...
回到他家,又说不要ALICE
换别的戏....
怎知上网又上不到.....
不里先..
出去拉....去找泰和尚.....
帮姐姐做超渡.....
那里有好多好多的泰店.....
但是师傅不在吖....
不能做....
他叫我们去泰庙做....
应该星期日会去咯.....
姐姐他们说这个做了对你好^^
过后就去围食街吃东西...
叫了好多东西吃....
好久没吃那么多东西了.....
吃完就去戏院拉....
看有什么戏看先.....
没戏看了....
他们就说随便一部...
就买THE BOOK OF ELI
还有时间,
就上去打机下....
到时间拉.....买水进场(因为已经吃不下了).....
看没几分钟...全部要睡觉了....
有点闷咯....
UNDER IN THE MOUNTIAN还没那么闷.....
后悔.........
买了后天的票......
越光宝盒....期待^^

15/3/2010

15/3/2010
今天...不知道怎样的...
过的有点怪....
放工后回家和老师玩煮饭仔....
我们边看戏边吃着我们的杰作^^
老师走了...
不知怎么的....被针刺了两下...
痛痛痛......
过后就追戏...
看'下一站.幸福'
好好看....
有些话....说的很好....
突然,有电话....
接起....
不认识的......
变态老......
呜呜呜....过后还一直打来....
害我都不敢接.....
以后怕怕乱接电话了......

my best fren ...thx

好姐妹…..
这几天还好有这个傻婆陪着我….
过的还不错….
姐姐你看到我这样你开心吗?
上个星期过的好充实….
一直出去….
哈哈哈….
星期三去吃肉骨茶,过后去夜市(康乐)….
买了芒果冰…好难吃…=(
过后去对面买了…彩虹西米露….
好吃哦 …=)
今天睡傻婆家….哈哈…
明天要去他的店帮忙…..
起来去吃早餐….
过后工作….忙完已经2.00了….
出发sunway 拉….
去吃拉面….好吃哦=)
走后走街,,,哇哇哇…全是贵货…..
他买的下我买不下….=(
最后还是买了一件…..
很贵涅…><
第二天…走了夜市(leisure mall)
想去看戏的alice …. 怎知没票…..最后去pavilion看
财神到…..也不错看下拉…..
哈哈…..
有点习惯一直跟着她们了…..

初七….

初七….
今天爸爸叫我去johor看看公公婆婆…..
我就叫舅舅载我下 咯….
去到婆婆家,只见到婆婆….
公公出去赌博了….
就跟婆婆聊天啊…..
给婆婆看姐姐的照片…
婆婆说姐姐好像睡觉那样…
他们说姐姐走的很安详
姐姐也很美….听到他们这样说我心中有点欣慰….
因为姐姐很爱美的….
也有人说我和姐姐长的象….
过后就去找我的外婆拉…..
在去找外太婆的同时… 婆婆跟我说公公回家了
看完外太婆…
就回去啊公家…
他一见到我,就问我下来干吗…
语气不大好…..
怕到不敢回答….
过后他就一直骂我….(骂外太婆的)
我根本 不知道发生什么事…
他就直接骂我….
我本来不哭的….
最后还是哭了….
我觉得委屈才哭的….
为什么每次都要骂 我?
我生出来是多余的吗?
我不合你缘我就不是你孙女吗?
从小到大都是这样
不管我做的多好你都是不赞同我?
我很生气,但我什么也不能说….
他以为只有他才心痛?
我门不会吗?
她可是我姐姐……
我好想问他…
难道我不是人吗?
我不是你孙女吗?
为什么?你就那么讨厌我?
我多想出事的是我而不是我姐姐….
这样一来他可能没那么伤心把….
我有个想法…
如果一开始别把我生出来那不就好了??
………………………………………………..

迷惘......

最近以来老师时常问我....
之后你打算怎样....
我只会回答....
不知道....
老师就说.....
你现在连你的人生目标是什么...
你都不知道....
那你要怎样过?
我的目标在姐姐还在时是有的....
现在的我,
真的不想去实现....
好想就这样过一世....
因为我根本没心情.....
很多人都安慰我....
叫我要开心活下去.....
要坚强...
但我只会逞强....
我真的没了目标....
也没有信心....
我该怎么做呢?
我自己也不知道....
找个人嫁了?
还是在家过一世?
我的梦想,
达不到了....
老师....对不起...
令你失望了...........

8/3/2010...发生的事

昨天我做了件连我自己想都没想去做的事......
今天我6.00 pm放工...
因为店装修...
帮老师收拾店所以迟回....
我像平时一样走路回家,
今天在回家路上我买了nasi lemak当我的晚餐...
好久没吃 .....几想念下....
进了电梯回到家里....
冲凉....准备吃饭.....
才吃第一口,
电话响起....
原来是我老板(也就是我表哥)
他打来跟我拿店铺锁匙的...
他有东西留在公司了....
店铺的锁匙一路来是我拿的...
因为我最早到店....
我就拿锁匙下去给他咯...
没带电话只带锁匙就下去了...
把锁匙交给表哥后我就回家拉....
去到家楼下等电梯....
WOW....好多人呀....
电梯有三部其他两部坏 了 ...
只剩一部...所以好多人...
我等了好久终于等到电梯拉....
怎知道推来推去全部想要进电梯....
那我只好做下一次 .....
等好久哦....
不想等了....
这是我心想走上去几楼上去在按电梯好了.....
走走走走走.....
我已经到第十楼了电梯都还没到顶楼
我住19楼....
最顶楼是21楼....
好累呀....=(
走到第16 楼...
我的脚已经痛到....
这时电梯才刚正要向下走....
所以我不等了....
直接走楼梯回家....
终于到了....
我的脚好酸哦....
回到了家...
第一件事就是吹风扇....
流了好多汗...
我之前说过...
除非我傻了不然我不可能走楼梯回的....
19 楼哦 ....
怎样走????
可是没想到我今天却做了这样的事.....
回到家后我就继续吃我的饭拉....
一边看戏一边吃饭....
吃完饭后我的腰就有点痛痛了...
过后更痛....
这些就叫骨头散了.....
老了...=(
之后我就开始咳嗽.....
咳不停..好辛苦...=(
三天前就已经不舒服了....
但是我还在那里一直伤害我的喉咙....
好辛苦....
我咳到差不多天亮....
又没睡到觉了....
好累....
但是想起姐姐....
我就不累了....
前阵子更差,
吃什么就吐什么...
不懂的人一定以为我有了 ....
不过还好这几天我的死党一直陪着我...
很谢谢她....
谢谢你傻婆.....
不过说真....
她比我小但比我回想....我应该要反省了......

今天.....

现在的我拍照笑不出.....
眼睛就快变熊猫了....
最近睡不下....
吃东西又吃不下.....
昨天我的死党又来陪我....
我们去吃粥...
很好吃,我和姐姐都最爱吃.....
可惜以后都没机会了.....
......................
这件事后,,,我发现人是脆弱的....
心跳也是脆弱的....
只要心跳一停你想在呼吸多一口气都没机会了.....
心跳的音律是很 美妙的....
但有多少个人回发现呢?
不知道....
后悔....这两个字很多人都会写....
但多少个人会避免这样的事发生?
答案:没有一个....
人人每天过的生活都不同....
这一秒你开心,可是在世界的某一个地方可能发生了悲剧....
所以每个人都会说....请珍惜现在你拥有的一切....
但事实上有多少人懂的珍惜呢?
珍惜着两个字.....
不是说你会,你明白它的意识你就会做到的.....
每个 人对珍惜的看法都不同.....
相对的看法及处理方式也不同....

4/3/2010....知道事实...

前几天,我鼓起勇气向当天与姐姐一起出车祸的朋友询问,当天的事发经过......
她问我看开了没....
我回答她....还好....
但他说要接受事实....
她会把事经过告诉我.....
她说星期四晚上她会打给我....
终于等到星期四了....
好巧,今天我有个死党来陪我....
我们一起回家....在电梯里时...
电话响起.....她,打来了....
我接起电话叫他过错分钟打来.....
电梯收线不好...
回到家后....
不久电话就响了....
在我接起电话,心在怕......
她开始诉说当天的情况....
说到一半....她哭了....
我其实早就哭了....可是朋友在我一直忍住....
最后我也忍不住哭了....
facebook上很多人留言给我要我坚强....
不要哭.....
这是件多难做到的事.....
但我知道他们是想关心我的....
谢谢你们...
其实我的死党她外婆也和我姐姐同一天走了....
他还是亲眼看着他外婆走的....
如果是我我一定崩溃....
她很坚强,而且他小我一年....
..................................................
我无言.........
现在我有点乱了脚步....
有点不知道自己要干吗....
姐姐....你回来见我好吗?

我的遗憾...

2月14日 早上
昨晚和90年的朋友去aloha…..
很开心…第一次和朋友玩到这么开心……
2.30AM 姐姐还有打给我叫我不要玩到太夜……
原本当晚说好要一起睡觉的....
后来我出去所以就没一起睡了...
之前我们还约好了明天一起去啊may家拜年………
我玩到天亮5点多到家…累到=(
一回来就躺在床上睡觉 …..
到了8点多
爸爸叫醒我和朋友…说姐姐出事了….
当时我还睡不醒跟本不知道姐姐发生了很严重的事….
半路我打给慧欣问出了什么事,当时她哭到很厉害,她说什么我根本不知道.
后来换他男跟我解释经过……
我马上哭了….姐姐出了很严重的车祸…
到了现场看到姐姐在车上,我以为姐姐只是轻伤.
当爸爸上来时我问爸爸姐姐怎样了….还有呼吸吗?爸爸摇头….
我不敢接受这事实…..
我失控大哭…..爸爸一直叫我回家….
不久妹妹来了….表姐也来了…没人能接受这事实….
我们在那里等了一个小时多救护车才来....
姐姐被医护人员抬上来,我表姐他们都过去看他了....
一个个哭到控制不了...他们叫我去看....
我从小到大只看过电影的....真人的我从没看过...
在走去看姐姐的时候我已经无力了...
看到姐姐被一张布盖着我更是崩溃大哭....
爸爸一直叫我回家....我不要....
我还......
姐姐被送去医院…爸爸要我回家冲凉后去医院…
一到家,爸打来…问我:姐姐明天火葬可以吗?
我第一时间就说不能…..但是爸说,姐还年轻不能土葬,
而且姐姐还没成家尸体不能带回家….
最后只能选择火葬……..=(
每个人高高兴兴过新年....
姐姐你却离开我....
姐姐你现在快乐吗?
回来见见我好吗?
我好想你......